okay so ill start off with the biggest issue,BOYS (i hear you groaning ) why do i have to always fall in love with the ones ill NEVER have a realationship with so its completely unreal the broken heart i get when i relise they dont even know i exsist, so after millions of these stuiped crushes im now anti-boys which is harder to keep up than you would think, when did i get so dependant on the male sex?

next issue, once i saw cigerettes poking out my mums bag and i asked her why she had them, she said they were for her friend, so i thought umm ok but the other day i was looking at them when i had to quickly put them away. the next day i checked them out again and i saw there was only three left when the day  before  there had to be at least double that amount and checking again today i looked and there was a new full pack, why is my mum deceiting me, i mean im more mad at the fact she hasnt told me straigh the truth, it just doesnt seem like her.

then theres things like my friends treating me like im dumb and unintelligent, and my real dad who i havent seen in  10 years who could turn up at my doorstep any moment he likes, bring my world crashing down.

oh and yeah ive been depressed for 4 years now, great my world already crashed down a longggg time ago.

i need to start over.